Goodbye Sheba

Today I did a really hard thing. I took my kitty back to where I got her. I love having an animal. But she was getting so aggressive that I was starting to feel nervous around her.

Ever since I got her she has tended to bite. I tried to train her out of it but I never knew when she would reach up and bite me. She did pretty good for a while but within the last three weeks she bit me twice. Once she was on my lap and I was talking to a friend on my cell I had my arm up playing with my hair and she bit my forearm and then scampered away. The last time was last Sunday. I had one of my little charges over and the little one was playing on the floor with toys. Sheba kept laying on the toys and several times I removed her. Then she tried to jump over my arm and do it again and I put up my arm to bar her from doing it. She bit me and dashed away.

I love animals but not ones that bite. It was the last straw, and I worried that someday she would bite one of the kids or my grandkids. She wasn't predictable at all and I never knew what would provoke a bite.

So today I started to pack up her stuff. She looked at me as if she knew what was coming and I took a very long time doing it. It was hard and emotional. I at least knew that where I was taking her would be safe and they would find her a new home. I had been told by the kitty foster mom that I could bring her back if for any reason I couldn't keep her. Finally I just figured I would have to do it. I tried not to think too hard about it as it brought tears to my eyes. Yes she was a bitchy cat but I still loved her, I am just tired of the biting.

So I drove her over to the shelter where her foster mom worked. I was worried that they would tell me what a terrible pet owner I was and how I should keep her no matter what. But they were sympathetic and seemed to understand how hard it was for me. I filled out the forms, they called her foster mom, I gave them all her stuff and quickly left, crying as I drove. I almost ran a red light because I was upset. I miss her already.

I asked them if they would ever let me get another kitty because I had returned her and they said it would be ok. I am not going to do it at this time as I am moving and right now another kitty won't replace the ache in my heart.

I love you Sheba and wish you luck finding a new home.